A film about stuttering? I know it all too well...

"The King's Speech" is a film that stars Colin Firth and is realized on December 10, 2010. That's as much as I knew until a few hours ago, but then the LA Times tweeted a link to this article. I'm not sure what made me click it, but alas I did. Only reading the first few lines of the article, I searched for the trailer. I ended up in tears.

Few of you may know about my struggle with stuttering. I haven't told many people, but if you've talked to me before, I'm sure you've noticed my stammer. It's something that I can't describe when I'm telling my parents, how can I express how difficult it is for me? Not just speaking, but emotionally? Don't get me wrong, I've told them, but I don't think they grasp exactly how much of a trouble it is. 

Seeing Colin Firth convey the exact expressions and emotions was only too clear to me. Seeing his performance was like looking through a mirror. That was me. No.. That IS me. 

Zoom to the part where he cries "I have a voice!" to Geoffrey Rush's character. That did it. The tears waiting to be released came out in a flood. It's not an exaggeration, I know this all too well, as I'm sure many others who have or currently are struggling with this speech deficit will be able to identify. Not only are our voices lost with our incomprehensible speech, but in our emotions. Feeling lost.

I'm excited for this film and the buzz it's garnering, as I hope it does well in awards season. I can't wait to drag my parents along so they can experience and properly be shown what I've gone through these past years. It's overwhelming to finally see my story on film.

(...except for that whole being a king part, & being married.)

Am I in heaven?

Went to Costco and hundreds of Jodi Picoult books were stacked up, waiting for me to 

buy them all and re-read them

(If you didn't know, I love Picoult's books.)

Can't wait till Winter break starts so I can start to read her latest novel House Rules. 

UC apps, Harry Potter and.. Oh yeah, the Doctor!

This is the time I should be using to write my UC personal statements (which I totally will after I finish writing this, watch more Garfield & Eisenberg interviews, Harry Potter interviews and watch this week's Glee and 30 Rock.)

Hmm.. funny how when you write it out it seems like a completely bad idea, but it sounds ok in your head. Damn.

Thursday night I attended the midnight showing of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (dressed up as a fellow Gryffindor, robe and all), and it  was FANTASTIC. I'm not embarrassed to admit that I was totally like this:

I'm sure many people hold Harry Potter in their heart. It was my childhood, it's what made me fall in love with reading and my imagination went crazy with this wonderful world JK Rowling created. During middle school I was bullied (but when was I not) about my weight, and Harry Potter is what kept me strong. (FYI I used to believe I was a wizard!)

Zoom to present day Steph and I still believe in some sort of magic. Well, HE is magical (and by he, I mean the Doctor). He's not real, I know that, but I'd love for him to come and ask me to travel with him in his TARDIS (I guess I'll always be a kid at heart). I'm sure I'd be scared as hell, but I'd know the doctor (Matt Smith I'm looking at you) would save me, and give me the tender kisses he gives Amy to reassure her (I'm talking about series 5 ep.3 for all you Whovians).

A few days ago, BBC America announced that they will air the Doctor Who Christmas special

  ON CHRISTMAS DAY at 9 p.m.

At first I was like..........

and then I was like....

... after it hit me that I'd be watching freaking Doctor Who on Christmas Day, just like all the British folks.

Oh snap, it's late. Ok, skipping the whole watching TV and just diving into my UC personal statement. Priorities.

Jesse Eisenberg + Andrew Garfield = EISENFIELD.

If you haven't heard of Jesse Eisenberg or Andrew Garfield I advise you to run to your nearest movie theater and watch The Social Network.

 Seriously. Run. NOW.

These two people are the most unbelievable men ever. You know how I was obsessed with Tveit? Not any more, my fangirl devotion now resides in the British and awkward folk. Jesse  Eisenberg seems like my kind of guy. The guy that makes awkward comments that are totally funny but only with his select group of friends (that I would totally belong to), and he'd always have an intricate explanation for the simplest of things. Sports? Nah. This guy is old school. Or, as Tessa says: "Jesse Eisenberg: The ultimate pin-up for nerdy, shy college girls."

Andrew Garfield is Bambi.

That is common knowledge. Accept it.

So you might be wondering (as I myself do) "what is so special about these pretty boy celebrities?" Answer: Everything. I can't explain it, it's not tangible.. it just is.

It's sorta like this: Everyone (huge generalization here, but accept it) in Hollywood is fake and not genuine. These two guys? Completely genuine. Their interviews exudes levels of major awkwardness.

Maybe that's why I love them. They are my awkward heroes (doesn't make sense, don't accept it). It's so refreshing to see people not conform to the Hollywood stereotype, and frankly I am beyond stoked for award season, where they'll show their uber  awesomeness to the world [and also get nominated for Academy Awards (they are THAT good)].

Ugh. Is this how it feels to be in love with a celebrity?

Andrew Garfield is rich in soul.

.....but always asks to borrow money.